so i am currently writing a research paper on diaphragmatic hernia surgeries in animals for my class, its due friday.. i barely started it today but im already half way done woo \m/ but man do writing these papers suck.. trying to take already-perfectly-wrote clinical information and compose it into my own words is difficult -_- ha. but whateves, ill be finished with school july 2nd!!!, which means only one more paper to write after this one.yes.but on the really real, I seriously cannot wait to be a certified veterinary assistant. It cant come soon enough!!! <3

i am on my way to becoming a veterinary assistant. its going absolutely amazing. I love school..and i have never loved school + my teacher is the shit. She is so awesome. I am so happy with this. This mod i passed with more points than required! :D 

Some lady told me there was no hope for me because I don’t believe in god, so I laughed said cool. Fucking lady had no right to say anything to me about whatever I believe, I was polite to her about her belief, made no rude comment, even after she was trying to preach to me. To me thats so unchristian of her to say there’s no hope for me. But whatevs my life would be no different if I did believe in god so she can shove it / endrant

Something’s missing. I feel it, but what?

I’ve learned so much from life. From the good, the bad, the happy and the sad. It’s all made who I am today. I know how to live my life the right way for me. I’m in a life mood I would say right now. I have so much in my heart to give, to the world, my loved ones, my friends, even strangers. I use to push down what’s in my heart,things I’ve wanted to do, people I’ve wanted to see, things I’ve wanted to say, trying to protect others in a way. And then I realized what was the point of all of that? If it was suppressing me and my happiness. It wasn’t right and by doing that I lost connection with people who make me happy. And that made me sad. I won’t ever do that again to my self or others. I m just ready to give this life my all.

I feel as if I’m losing you. You. I don’t want that, I can’t have that, that already happened partially, when you moved. Now your back and it’s still like your gone in a way. I don’t know what else to do. I can’t lose you to someone so selfish. To someone who controls what you do, how you do it, when you do it. I know you love him, but wouldn’t love want you to do what makes you happy, wouldn’t it be okay to do what you want on your own terms? And not be jealous of your best friend wanting to see you? You always do this to me. Can’t you step up and be strong for yourself? For me! Because no matter what, you and I both know we are the best thing that’s ever happened to each other. We keep each other sane, we complete each other, we need one another. Can’t you see how much we really mean to each other. I know you know. But you need to just think about it. Idk. I’ve tried so hard to fill your mind with what’s really right, and what is happening is wrong. And you know it. I can’t lose you again especially when your here. No, it tore me apart to see you go, to be gone. I just want my best friend back. Bad.